Pain

If I felt all of the pain I hide,
Inside the darkness of my soul,
Where I store the things I don't wanna feel,
Till I need to feel once more,

It would eat me up so quickly,
No-one would be spared,
The chaos that I could begin,
Because you said you cared,

I know now that you lied to me,
Lied straight to my face,
Never told an ounce of truth,
I never had your faith,

Watch me as the pressure builds,
See the steam seep through,
Duck and run for cover now,
You know it's aimed at you,

As useless as my love for you,
You try to get away,
But there is no escaping,
The schrapnel as it sprays,

I'd let you see it,
This pain inside my heart,
You'd see the damage first hand,
As I blow apart,

But this isn't how I feel now,
Just how I felt that day,
I said my last goodbye,
I cried as I walked away.

Kinda brutal this love we feel,
The emotions that it stirs,
It is the human gift,
It is the human curse,

We'd do anything for love,
But is that a real excuse,
For all the pain we cause ourselves,
For all the self abuse.

Written at 2:37am 14/03/2009 the morning of my first possible drag race, if the weather comes good, but it don't seem likely now. Guess I just couldn't sleep. LoL.

Pathos.